Apology

A loosely crafted poem straight from the heart!



At dawn I hold you in my arms.
And at dusk I threw you out
As a worn out old toy.

Plunging your heart
With deep agonizing pain.

Forgiveness – a day dream
And mercy – a butcher’s knife.

A fool was I to lose my truth in you;
And search it in others.

With no words to speak
And no words to apologize
I stand before you
With tears of regret.

With shame for my actions
And hate for my being
I wish every second
To delete that single damned moment.

Broken Love

Let me rest in peace; Let me forget you
And let me suffer in solitude.
But please take from me,
Your aching memories.

Making my life a living hell;
You Haunt my days with ghosts from our past.
Haunting my days with every minute I cross;
You made my life a soft toy in your hands.

The groaning cry that emanates
When you come in my dream.
And the searing pain that implodes
When the dream vanishes in reality.

You forget my words and the promises we shared,
You disregard my love and the days we spent
You lose my love and lost yourself,
As you burn my soul,a can of carcass.

Let me live; Let me breathe
And let me smile once more
Please give me back my reason for life.
Give myself back.

P.S: Inspired from the song " Po Nee Po" of the album 3.

FRIEND??

(The poem was written around 3 years back when I had a big fight with my friend and we never spoke for 1.5 months! Posting it again after request from another friend!!)

Words, the music I heard from you,
Look, the most protective cover I had,
Does it had to shine and wane?
Can’t I come out of this bane?

The hatred, which comes without words,
The stare that makes heart stone,
To be in company, yet alone.
To be with mates, yet not you.

Let the sun turn ice cold,
Let the moon turn blood red;
Let seas freeze; mountains crumble;
For my friend turned me away

To walk solemnly through life,
To reach my end without your company.
O! Friend hear forth my words,
“Thou hath lost me.”

Let the sun turn ice cold,
Let the moon turn blood red;
Let seas freeze; mountains crumble;
For my friend turned me away.

I pity you; you angry me;
I loved you; you hate me;
You shall regret and feel ashamed,
But have no remorse for you had me.

Betrayal

Trust was all that I had in you,
When you threw it into gutter
And spat in my face
Inviting retribution and pain.

Kneel before me; Pray to me;
Plead and cry for your filthy life
For I am your master,
Your soul keeper and life sucker.

Run amuck or hide around
But do remember the sweet truth
That there is no escape
From my wrath and fury.

Squirm in pain
And die with fear
For vengeance is now
My sweet pleasure

Beware!
You mortal fool!
Better lick my feet and be at peace,
Than to betray me and wish for death.

The Magic Hat

When Knowledge is the nectar
Birth is an obligation,
Life a pain,
And death a bliss.

When the truth unravels,
Birth becomes an unwanted intruder
And life an endless wait
For the arrival of the guest – ‘death’.

Open the safe of knowledge
With the key of thoughts
To enlighten the mind of the daring truth
That life is a trivial game show.

Pitiable lives run amuck
Amassing money, power and fame
Afraid of the truth,
And ignorant of the secret
That life is just a magician’s hat.

Indebted perpetually

A flickering flame,
A dying battle
And a lost soul
Was all that remained in me.

Thoughts obscured,
Ideals violated
And morality loosened
Made life a living hell.

Hope - a farmer’s dream,
Life - a donkey’s burden,
Ambition – a poet’s banter
And I – a speck of dirt
Until they found
The remains of my long lost soul.

Taking me along with them,
Talking sense into me,
And feeding in the fuel
For the fire in me to burn again.

Life – a rebirth,
Pain – a memento,
Dream – an inspiration,
And thoughts a new hope.

Hope – a lighthouse
To cross the sea of life,
And ready to face the tides of misery
Over the boat of self assurance.

Despair to confidence,
Pain to power,
Dope to hope,
And from death to redemption.

To every life who trusted on me,
To every mate who kindled me,
And made me bear the mammoth responsibility,
Am indebted perpetually!


(Truly indebted to a whole lot of friends who were with me during my distressed times as well as happy times, helped me, encouraged me, inspired me and set an example for me... This is for all of them!! :))

Lost Love

Translation of tamil poem ,"காதல் இன்றி அமையாது இவ்வுலகு!!" by my friend Ruban! The link: http://thamizhkavithaigal.weebly.com/

Here goes the translation:
Lost Love

My heart skipped a beat or two-
When I opened out my love.
The moment you disregarded it,
My heart came to a halt.
Though I lost myself in love,
Never will I let love to get lost.

Glad that you never chose me!
For if you had,
My triads would have faded.

Glad that you never chose me!
As now my words portray,
Every angel my eyes stray.

Burying in my lost love,
I save shards of bereft love
And a few left out verses
For the love of my life.

And the original tamil version by Ruban:
காதல் சொல்லி
நீ ‘இல்லை’ என்று சொன்ன
வார்த்தையின் இறுதியில்
இறந்தே போனேன் நான்!

நான் தோற்றுப் போனாலும்
நெஞ்சில் முடக்கி வைத்து
தோற்க விடவில்லை-காதலை!!!

நீ எனக்கு கிடைத்திருந்தால்
உன்னோடே முற்றுப் பெற்றிருக்கும்
என் கவிதைகள் எல்லாம்!

இப்போதோ கண்ணில்படும் தேவதைகள்
யாவரும் கவிதைக்கு கருப்பொருள் ஆகிறார்கள்!

காதல் என்னை துளைத்து வெளியேறியதால் தான்
நான் மனிதனாகிப் போனேன்- ஏன்!
புனிதனாய் கூட மாறிப் போனேன்!!!

காதல் முழுவதையும், கொஞ்சம் கவிதைகளையும்
சேமித்து வைக்கிறேன்-
என் வருங்கால வாழ்க்கைக்காக!!

THE DEVIL HUNTS

The Devil hunts the deep of hearts;
The Devil hunts my deepest parts;
Is there a place for me to hide and pray;
Or is this how it goes in an unending way?

The Devil hunts, who goes so far,
To rip his soul n scatter it apart,
The way I tried to hide and pray;
Pray to every Gods I've known;
No matter what I pray and cry,
The devil stands waiting to rip me apart.
Draining my life and sucking out happiness,
Feeding me with pain, despair and suffering.
The Devil gains strength every second,
Making God a mere puppet of him.

No one else can save me from him now!

I am sinful of everyone known so far,
And the God trembles to see me cry,
Neither can He answer my prayers,
Nor can He face me again.
Shattered, defeated and lost,
This is how I make my way,
To the Devil's gateway of Hell,
And become the One with the Devil.

Suicidal Pleasure

Pain searing through my veins,

Anger clouding my thoughts,

Hatred eating me alive,

Death engulfing me a whole.



Yearning to enjoy the pain,

Waiting for the end of life,

Straining to stop my breath,

To bring in to me the ecstasy of death.



Blood gushing out of mouth,

Eyes popping out of sockets,

Throat strangled by the chord,

Hanging from the roof writhing in pain.



As life flashes through my eyes,

As heart finally prepares to rest,

I finish off my evanescent life,

To reach for eternal peace.

My Own Wrath

Stress has got me in its gripping hands,
Pushing me though; beyond the limits;
Those that are termed as end points of sufferings.
Suffering has just started for the Sinned,
For neither you nor He can give a hand.
All you filthy beings can is;
Just watch me bleed, break and cry.

Cries not born out of pain but anguish,
Being broken, not to surrender,
But to be triumphant on the bones of the Damned.
Bleeding, not to die as a puppy,
But to fool him and make him slips.

Hit me, Crack me, Shake me,
Twist me, Tear me, Mutilate me,
For every misery I bear,
My resistance grows and
Your hands tremble at every step.
Neither shall my suffering go untold,
Nor your paths of torture will be buried.


Thou are nothing more than a speck of dust.
Fool! Do you think I will give up?
Hear the truth: “For every suffering,
I bear; you shall face the same,
But along with my wrath- a hundred fold increased.